late happy birthday to ...me?

 Hello.. hiiii ! welcome !

*late* Happy birthday to me ! 

 

I shouldve make that post a few days ago by now, since its already been 15 days from my birthday but yeah.. one year closer to death ^_^ yayyyy........    

I spent my actual birthday, july 3rd, on a last day of the trip in bali :D Im really grateful I had an oppportunity to spend it on such vacation like that but nevertheless it was a tough day for me and id rather to spend it alone or with my beloved.. The day started by waking up early, getting my makeup done and everything becuse we had to move hotels on that day...... just to cry durning breakfast becouse I already was at my breaking point. My parents were mad as fuck too becouse i made them look bad in front of other guests. Great. I hate pepole pointing out its my birthday, especially around strangers and when I thought im gonna tough it out - the staff came to sing a birthday song and give me a cake and they even took a picture when I had tears in mye eyes and everything . . . I hate being preceived so much bro

I eventually ended up redoing my makeup and trying not to think about what day it is. Later in the day my mum told me the other guy from our trip also had his birthday today so yay first time meeting someone with same date xD ehhh... I honestly dont know how I feel about being older now, its not like something changed but i feel like it shouldve? Just another year developing my frontal lobe xd I dont think my family will organise my birthday this year too so it just feels weird. I also didnt organise my brithday for friends in years now probably, I kinda wish i had pepole to invite to my birthday. I mean I do, but its complicated.. I dont know how its gonna be next year and im already anxious :'3

A lot of pepole send me wholseome wishes (despite that i forgot half of my friends birthdays) but its probably only becouse i posted it on my story but i still appreciate it c':  My boyfriend actually has his birthday 2 days after me so we both celebrated it being separate and on vacay lol We are going on a birthday date soon so yay ! It makes me happy. He's spoiling me so much <3

I dont know how I feel abot my age being this serious now and posting this here since its kind of vunerable but theres like 2 pepole seeing any of these posts at best, so it doesnt matter probably

 

 
My unrealistic dream is to be an anime character everyone relates to, wishes they were real, getting made shrines of and even but a cake to celebrate their birthday . . . omg like Marin adoring Shizuku-tan lol 

 

OK! Thats it for today. I dont think I want to talk about it anymore.

Have a nice day and happy birthday to everyone who shares my birthday ^_^

 

 

⋆⁺₊⋆ monthly playlist - july ⋆⁺₊⋆

 

hi ..helllo ! welcome back ! (＾• ω •＾)

Im back from my vacation hiatus, but ill talk on that later ^_^ It was a fun trip, ive documented a lot of it so ill probably share it here soon, i was thinking of uploading them to flickr becouse theres a lot so.. ill think about it :p

For now.. enjoy my july playlist that i forgot to make until a week ago lol 

 

 

ps. Maybe Ill make a shopping haul from my vacayyy hmmm... il think about it